yeah well I aint proud of it but certainly am not the only one. I had really bad day - I just came back from the hospital where they pumped so much demerol into her that her respiration failed and shes on a breathing tube. Also I realized today that my MOM isnt coming and its not the money that hurts - its that it will take at least ten days before I can get anything else and they will stop the demerol tomorrow regardless. Then I come home to find myself being mocked as a retard without bothering to so much as ask how this came to be. It really was the last straw.

I am fucking bouncing off the walls right now!