i think he is..

but seriously man.. you gotta stop thinking like that. its fueling your mind to keep thinking about the worst in you

my BEST friend was tripping on mushrooms to come home to his older brother(a senior in highschool at the time) hanging in the garage by his neck. he had a rough couple weeks but time heals everything. get involved in whats going on around you. join a team, meet people thru activities that you both enjoy so you have something in common, itts a lot earier to make friends that way. TRUST ME, don't do something that foolish! especially at such a young age.. you have you WHOLE LIFE ahead of you, tho it may not seem that way right now. when i was 17 i started fucking around with cocaine... i was skipping school everyday, a few classes here-a few classes there... my bank account went from $1200 to $-300.. and not to get really personal or anything, but i still havent graduated, yet i own my own resturant now and things are looking up

dont give up man, you got more fight in you than you think