Thinkin about killing myself

[bonsaiguy]

Ok, just saw the post where you said you had cleared your head and wised up. Now take the next step and talk to someone. Don't be afraid to get some help. It's out there all over the place. Please??

[Reefer Rogue]

1. When you exist, your death does not, and what does not exist can't harm you.

2. When your death exists, you do not, and what does not exist cannot be harmed.

3. It is irrational to fear what can't harm you.

4. It is irrational to fear when you can't be harmed.

5. At any time, either you exist or death exists.

6.Thus, for any time, either death can't harm you, or you can't be harmed by death.

Therefore,

7. It is irrational at any time to fear death.

"Weep not for him who departs from life, for there is no suffering beyond death." -Palladas.

Here is a suicide not from Charlotte Perkins Gilman:

"Human life consists in mutual service. So grief, pain misfortune, or 'broken heart' is no excuse for cutting off one's life while any power of service remains. But when all usefulness is over, when one is assured of an unavoidable and imminent death, it is the simplest of human rights to choose a quick and easy death in place of a slow and horrible one."

I've already read that you said you weren't going to commit suicide. That is good. Everyone's life is in their own hands, do with it what you will. I'll leave you with this...

"There was a time when we were not: this gives us no concern - why then should it trouble us that a time will come when we shall cease to be?"

William Hazlitt.

[robert42]

dam man ur a nice guy i hope u dont choice that way out

[CrAzYpOtHeAd]

why? fuck it, that's why. I remember in high school they gave these stupid seminars on suicide telling us "people commit suicide because they want the pain to stop". well they're fucking stupid, because there's always more than one reason, and sometimes it may even be justified. I hate people who say "it's never the answer". well maybe sometimes it is, maybe the world isn't a big happy simple place where one answer fits all. And right now I realized that it may be my only choice left because I have nowhere left to go.

right now I'm in college and as it's goin, I'm not going to pass. I've been studying for hours, but no matter how hard I try it's too much and I keep falling behind. it doesn't matter what I do, I've tried and tried, but I can't do it. I'm so fucking sick of people telling me that i just need to buckle down, and it'll be hard, but I'll suceed in the end. pretty fucking words don't pass my tests, don't finish my projects, don't make me understand all the material and catch up. I can work my ass off 24 hours a day, but I'm not gonna pass.

but hey, no big deal right? I'll just drop out, get a job, finally move out, and live a little first. oh wait, nope I'm fucked there too because I'm in so much fuckin pain all the time I can't possibly work. it hurts like hell for me just to take the bus to school, 3 hours a day sitting in class is enough alone to put me in a world of pain. so obviously, I can't go out and work, because I can barely manage to go out shopping.

so hey, if I should disappear suddenly, that's why, because I can't see a fucking way out. I can't finish college, I can't work, i can't move out, and my parents will never let me just sit at home doing nothing. What the hell else do I have for options? NOTHING. there's absolutely no other course I could take that I can see. don't listen to these assholes that say "suicide is NEVER the answer", 'cause I'm living proof that it's the only answer sometimes. I'm not saying I'll pop myself off today, 'cause I'm not, but I imagine I'll have to do it pretty soon.

So.... your gonna kill yourself because you ar'nt doing well in college and because you hate your classes? Thats a pretty lame reason to wanna kill yourself, you should be happy that you acculy had a chance at life, unlike some people, there's loads of people in third world country's that are starving to death and have no water. BUT YOU DON'T SEE THEM KILLING THEMSELV'ES DO YOU? If you ask me, you don't realise how lucky you are. Millions of people would love to be you. Rather than starving to death and not even being able to go to school and try to get an education.

[Ganj]

why? fuck it, that's why. I remember in high school they gave these stupid seminars on suicide telling us "people commit suicide because they want the pain to stop". well they're fucking stupid, because there's always more than one reason, and sometimes it may even be justified. I hate people who say "it's never the answer". well maybe sometimes it is, maybe the world isn't a big happy simple place where one answer fits all. And right now I realized that it may be my only choice left because I have nowhere left to go.

right now I'm in college and as it's goin, I'm not going to pass. I've been studying for hours, but no matter how hard I try it's too much and I keep falling behind. it doesn't matter what I do, I've tried and tried, but I can't do it. I'm so fucking sick of people telling me that i just need to buckle down, and it'll be hard, but I'll suceed in the end. pretty fucking words don't pass my tests, don't finish my projects, don't make me understand all the material and catch up. I can work my ass off 24 hours a day, but I'm not gonna pass.

but hey, no big deal right? I'll just drop out, get a job, finally move out, and live a little first. oh wait, nope I'm fucked there too because I'm in so much fuckin pain all the time I can't possibly work. it hurts like hell for me just to take the bus to school, 3 hours a day sitting in class is enough alone to put me in a world of pain. so obviously, I can't go out and work, because I can barely manage to go out shopping.

so hey, if I should disappear suddenly, that's why, because I can't see a fucking way out. I can't finish college, I can't work, i can't move out, and my parents will never let me just sit at home doing nothing. What the hell else do I have for options? NOTHING. there's absolutely no other course I could take that I can see. don't listen to these assholes that say "suicide is NEVER the answer", 'cause I'm living proof that it's the only answer sometimes. I'm not saying I'll pop myself off today, 'cause I'm not, but I imagine I'll have to do it pretty soon.

if you're gonna give up, atleast give up in style and become homeless. it's the second most selfish way to go...next to suicide.

[JustSayNo]

it's time for you to give up weed,

any drug just in-heightens the way you already feel,

if you feel like shit, smoking will make you feel like elephant shit,

have you tried St.John's Wort - honestly get yourself some, start eating fruit and veg and do some exercise.

[fractur]

I wish everybody could get that song stuck in their head, from Monty Python, "Always look on the bright side of life".

Are you joking? I'd kill myself if that happened..

So.... your gonna kill yourself because you ar'nt doing well in college and because you hate your classes? Thats a pretty lame reason to wanna kill yourself, you should be happy that you acculy had a chance at life, unlike some people, there's loads of people in third world country's that are starving to death and have no water. BUT YOU DON'T SEE THEM KILLING THEMSELV'ES DO YOU? If you ask me, you don't realise how lucky you are. Millions of people would love to be you. Rather than starving to death and not even being able to go to school and try to get an education.

By that logic, nobody has any right to complain about anything, given that there are always people in better / worse situations. I'm sure someone could rail on you everytime you complained about something. Would that make you feel better? Would that be the best thing that person could do for you?

[Flesh420]

I think i might "think" about killing my self too. This isnt me being a dick or anything. But why would u have to think about it i just love it when people have to think about it. First of all if you have to think about it then you wont do it anyway so theres no point in saying that. IF your gonna do it then just do it and do it right by not telling anybody that you are going to do it. Theres no thinking in this matter its either you do or you dont.

[TwoPacalypse Now]

i just want to let you know you're not the only one. you're definitely not the only one. i wanted to kill myself so bad last year and i cried myself to sleep and cursed god, asking him if he did exist, how can he put some one in such pain? I still think about it from time to time but i'm much better. i know i won't actually go through with it. because if youre religous, you know what happens if you kill yourself.

let me tell you something. i thought i was the worse person in the world when it came to social situations. i didnt have much confidence in myself. even though i dont have any physical barriers, i had alot of emotional and mental barriers and i couldn't lead a normal life. but one day it just clicked. i have to be a man and get through this. one day it will pass. i started thinking positive and more positive things started happening. really when you're depressed, its all in your mind. i know its hard to come to terms with that but as long as youre in that SINKHOLE mindset, where you can't get yourself out.. nothing good will come. i guarantee that. just remember. youre not the only one. youre not a loser. if i can make friends, ME! if i can, you can. you can get a girlfriend. you can do whatever you want. if college isn't for you, it isn't for you. something will come your way. remember; i know it's so hard i do, but try and stay out of that SINKHOLE. stay up.

[Wesley Pipes]

man you guys don't even get it.

I CAN'T go to trades school because I don't have the math and science prerequisits, nor am I any good at either of those disciplines.

I CAN'T go into a trades because of my physical condition. it's not a simple matter of painkillers, I can dope myself up till I'm seeing trains flying in the sky, it still hurts too much just to stay on my feet.

I CAN'T even get a girlfriend, or a friend for that matter, because I'm a fucking loser piece of shit.

and I STILL CAN'T get a job and move out because I'm too physically fucked to work. and the government won't give me disability insurance or anything because I live with my parents, and they're not going to give me money to move out.

see what I mean? there's all sorts of wonderfull cliche solutions out there, but in practice non of them add up. even if there was a god, I'd fucking hate him.

dude.... u must think your the only one with problems, u don't got it so bad, i'm not sayin i got it worse cuz i dont, but other ppl do, think about the thousands who are raped every year, think about all the kids with no parents or family at all that have no-where to turn to, no home to go to, think about the parents whos kids are abducted, raped and murdered by peodophiles and nut cases, u don't have it as bad as you think u do m8, others DO have it worse, and they have the strength to go on living, why can't you, if u kill urself u will only be wasting your life, u will not get a second chance at life dude.

Peace