i just want to let you know you're not the only one. you're definitely not the only one. i wanted to kill myself so bad last year and i cried myself to sleep and cursed god, asking him if he did exist, how can he put some one in such pain? I still think about it from time to time but i'm much better. i know i won't actually go through with it. because if youre religous, you know what happens if you kill yourself.

let me tell you something. i thought i was the worse person in the world when it came to social situations. i didnt have much confidence in myself. even though i dont have any physical barriers, i had alot of emotional and mental barriers and i couldn't lead a normal life. but one day it just clicked. i have to be a man and get through this. one day it will pass. i started thinking positive and more positive things started happening. really when you're depressed, its all in your mind. i know its hard to come to terms with that but as long as youre in that SINKHOLE mindset, where you can't get yourself out.. nothing good will come. i guarantee that. just remember. youre not the only one. youre not a loser. if i can make friends, ME! if i can, you can. you can get a girlfriend. you can do whatever you want. if college isn't for you, it isn't for you. something will come your way. remember; i know it's so hard i do, but try and stay out of that SINKHOLE. stay up.