hey all, I've come down mostly now. look, I'm sorry I brought this up really, I've just been having these nervous breakdowns about 2-3 times a week, seems taking a toke is the only way to stop it. I'm not going to kill myself, it was stupid of me to post that, I just convinced myself I had to 'cause I was so stressed out. so sorry about this crap.

DavidMtMl, you're not an asshole at all for asking, it's cool. I've been in pain for 4 years now because I injured my lower back in Judo from all the getting flipped and having to lift big guys which was quite a strain. then a year later I thought I was healed enough to join a softer martial art, so I went into Aikido. We spend a 2 hour class practicing throwing opponents who were trying to hit you. so I fell on this vertebrae in my upper back like 50 times that night, and it's been screwed and extremely painfull ever since. then, a couple months after that I went to a chiropractor about my back as usual. I mentioned I had a minor kink in my neck so he adjusted it and wrecked it so bad that I was in a neck cast for a month. it's probably my neck that hurts the most now, though hard to say at times. anywhoo, now it's also going down both my legs, and the neck injury gave me nerve damage so I get burning pins needles going down my arms and into my hands.