Please, please don't hurt yourself. My grandfather shot himself a few years back and it was devastating to the entire family.

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Life may look hard now, but you will survive. You can. Please, find a social worker or someone who can help you. You will thank yourself very, very soon when you feel better. I totally know how you feel. For a while, I felt like life just didnt have a purpose. You might feel like you're totally alone now, but you're not. Depression is an extremely common disease. Yes, it is a disease. It's treatable and you CAN beat it.

Please, dont kill youself.