well if you feel that you should, than do it. if the deciding factors to whether your going to kill yourself is what a couple of stoners on the internet say your obviously not serious unless were the only ones you have which isnt good either.

I suffered from bad depression when i was pretty young and i had suicidal thoughts but after a couple grands worth of weed, some good reading material, and a lot of sleepless, long nights i decided it wasnt how i wanted to be remembered and plus it is a pussies way out, but im not saying this for your case because i dont know about your pain you keep talking about but im sure that it is really shitty to not be able to work or even stand on your feet for any length of time.