Thinkin about killing myself

[dopesmoker]

before you think about suicide think about your loved ones and how they will feel if you do that.

[bedake]

man you guys don't even get it.

I CAN'T go to trades school because I don't have the math and science prerequisits, nor am I any good at either of those disciplines.

I CAN'T go into a trades because of my physical condition. it's not a simple matter of painkillers, I can dope myself up till I'm seeing trains flying in the sky, it still hurts too much just to stay on my feet.

I CAN'T even get a girlfriend, or a friend for that matter, because I'm a fucking loser piece of shit.

and I STILL CAN'T get a job and move out because I'm too physically fucked to work. and the government won't give me disability insurance or anything because I live with my parents, and they're not going to give me money to move out.

see what I mean? there's all sorts of wonderfull cliche solutions out there, but in practice non of them add up. even if there was a god, I'd fucking hate him.

solution: buy an xbox 360, buy xbox live, play online all day, video games replace the need for women over time. and make you not depressed.

Or buy world of warcraft, meet chicks, meet friends, get addicted, live life through WoW, my friend met his girlfriend who lives a hundred miles away through world of warcraft

life isnt so bad when you have video games, but if you were born with no hands... i dont know what to say, all i can is i would seriously kill myself if i had no hands but was otherwise completely OK life without gaming or drugs would not be a life for me, masturbation would suck too

[25yrsmoker]

hey dude i think about suicide everyday i lost my wife to cancer after being married for three weeks and i live in constant pain everyday also not just physical either but life is a fight everyday is another round with youreself and being alive is better than losing that fight talk to somebody that you trust and can help its definitely worth it believe me i hope you can get through the depression youre in i know its not easy but its worth it fight on bro and if you ever need someone to talk to im bigjez67 on aol im im here for you peace

[Shelbay]

My husbands dad killled himself when my husband was 12. It affects him to this day....be strong,nothing is so bad that it can't be worked out.He is a very stong man but he will not even go to his dads grave...he hurts so bad. Don't do it.

[420purplehaze420]

well if you feel that you should, than do it. if the deciding factors to whether your going to kill yourself is what a couple of stoners on the internet say your obviously not serious unless were the only ones you have which isnt good either.

I suffered from bad depression when i was pretty young and i had suicidal thoughts but after a couple grands worth of weed, some good reading material, and a lot of sleepless, long nights i decided it wasnt how i wanted to be remembered and plus it is a pussies way out, but im not saying this for your case because i dont know about your pain you keep talking about but im sure that it is really shitty to not be able to work or even stand on your feet for any length of time.

[Redbeard007]

Dude, what if the next life/world/etc. is even worse? Don't think ya can change your mind once you leave this one. This is much too big of a decision to not think of the consequences of your actions. Also, there are too many examples of people who are right where you are now, but they, with great effort, persevered and eventually walked into the sunlight of a new day.

[MRP]

nah man dont do it. you just gotta keep on keepin on, lifes a garden dig it. nah seriously if i was you just ask your doctor about depression cause you might have it. i have depression but the medicine they have me on is great it really helps. just find some help things can get better.

[rastabill89]

Ive thought about it man Im a very big guy im 16 6'ft 320 pounds history of diabetis is in my family my dad died when he was 44 from a bad heart (I was 8) I get pains in my chest alot so im scared about getting it and no girls like me not alot of people dont want to hang out with me so i pretty much stay at home eat and chill online from when i get home till i go to bed and get more fatter (cant even make friends online) so what do i have to live for? not much, but i hang in their man Im trying to get healthy buts its so fucking hard, So just hang in their I know what it feels like to not have any friends and to have bad pains i cant even run becouse my fucking knee gives out and im just all around a fat loser... but im not just going to kill myself...

TTYL

[bedake]

Dude, what if the next life/world/etc. is even worse? Don't think ya can change your mind once you leave this one. This is much too big of a decision to not think of the consequences of your actions. Also, there are too many examples of people who are right where you are now, but they, with great effort, persevered and eventually walked into the sunlight of a new day.

we should all draw straws to see who kills them self, the loser must kill them self in order to see wats in the after life, once they leard its secret, recon must return to base at 0500 hours, tell general Patton where the krauts are dug in at, we will call in artillary support to provide cover for baker companies assauly from the west. this will in turn take the eyes away from the south where the recently combined forces of the army of northern virgina and the army of the potomac will be marching with all reserves pulled in on their flanks. Mead is late as usuall but hopefully that prissy boy will pull through and take up covering the rear, we just out fitted the men with the new 1862 springfields so their aim will be true! may god bless our souls. MEN MOVE OUT!
HUZZAH HUZZAH

We are a band of brothers
And native to the soil
Fighting for our liberty
With treasure blood, and toil
And when our rights were threatened,
The cry rose near and far
Hurrah for the Bonnie Blue Flag
That bears a single star!

HUZZAH! HUZZAH! FOR SOUTHERN RIGHTS HUZZAH!! HUZZAH! FOR THE BONNIE BLUE FLAG THAT BARES A SINGLE STAR!!!

[mrdevious]

well if you feel that you should, than do it. if the deciding factors to whether your going to kill yourself is what a couple of stoners on the internet say your obviously not serious unless were the only ones you have which isnt good either.

actaully you guessed it, these forums are the only people I know pretty much, except for 2 friends that both live in cities so far away I maybe see them 3x a year for a day.

I suffered from bad depression when i was pretty young and i had suicidal thoughts but after a couple grands worth of weed, some good reading material, and a lot of sleepless, long nights i decided it wasnt how i wanted to be remembered and plus it is a pussies way out, but im not saying this for your case because i dont know about your pain you keep talking about but im sure that it is really shitty to not be able to work or even stand on your feet for any length of time.

yeah, I was all suicidal from 13-17 too because of getting bullied every day. then I found weed and totally left that state of mind. but now I'm almost 21, and weed doesn't cut it anymore for life. I don't know what I think right now though, I'm just inredibly high and numb.... but yeah what she said earlier about how much it fucked up her husband after that many years, it did make me think. I sorta figured they'd be over it after a year or 2, maybe not. but it's not much of a life just living to spare somebody else's feelings, I mean that can only hold you so long before it's just too tiring.

well where should I go? I feel totally stressed in social situations, so I have no social life, I'm not going to finish college, I can't work, and my back and neck and sometimes armas and legs all hurt like hell all the time. is like something that I never thought of??. god damnit Im too highh.,