Thanks for all of the replies. Yes, this 'evil feeling' is psychological no doubt about it. But it is also spiritual as well, there has to be a combination of the two. Native Americans used plants to get higher spiritually and I guess same with the Rastafarians or whatever. Weed can stimulate the mind, body, and soul to be a peace or to be one with each other. I love to meditate when high.

But I'm just saying I think marijuana has another purpose then just getting high. And I won't stop smoking either. I've had the fun, peaceful highs too. And I have also had the depressed lows. Never the paranoia. But over the past year or two my highs have gotten out of control. I can't even smoke right now because I'm doing UA's for trying to elude the police. I'm a good person, raised Catholic and have good morals and values overall. But on the flip side, I can get wild, raise hell and do some of this demon shit that eventually gets me in trouble.

See now that I haven't smoked since 10/05, I'm back down to earth and stopped with these dangerous actions and feelings. We'll see what happens when I can smoke again. You never know.