First of all, thank you to everyone that replied to the original post. It has been over a year and I appreciate all of the advice you have a given. I have read each and every post and considered what you have had to say.

I think this is an excellent topic and I'm glad people got involved. I still believe there is a spiritual connection when high, I guess maybe your mind can go either direction: good or evil. Yes, it is a mental and psychological experience. Obviously. But where does spirituality come to play? What makes the mind think the way that it does? Am I crazy then if I have dark thoughts? I don't think so.

There is no explanation for it, each person is unique. My situation now is totally different than it was before. I can't even smoke marijuana. Legally. I'm on probation until August 2008, I haven't smoked since October 2005. Ouch. UA's and BA's are bullshit. Alcohol or coke don't even come close to the high I get on weed.

But this experience has been for the better. I'm clear-headed now and found myself a girlfriend. We're living together and the future looks bright. I also got a new job and my financial situation has improved. Not bad for being sober.

So does it suck no being able to smoke? You know the answer to that one. It blows. But on the otherhand, the evil connection is gone and my life is on the upswing. Am I counting down to 8/08? You better believe it. But I'm taking this 'sober' time to create a foundation for this new life of mine.

I will smoke again and for the rest of my life. I love it. But right now I'm good where I'm at and stuff happens for a reason. The spiritual link I have when I smoke will always be there and I'm ready to try again in about a year. Heaven and hell on earth is what I always say.

Thanks again for all the replies.

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