Man, let me tell you this before you make up your mind about really growing. In order to really grow nice buds, your going to need to try and fail a thousand time before you get it right. And by the time you can keep your plants alive you'll know half of a college botanists curriculum. It is NOT easy stuff, and just a little warning: You have no idea how addictive marijuana is until you actually begin growing your own. Be safe, order seeds from http://drcronic.com and don't order them to the same addy that your growing at... have them sent to a girlfriends, even parents house, and try not go go above 2000w in total energy spent-- you don't want to have either too much heat or to big a spike in your energy use.