im trying to forget about it im doing pretty good at doing it

i told her online about 3 days ago how pissed i was at her she apologized for hurting me and said she did really really really like me alot but her feelings just changed for no reason and her telling me that pissed me off more because if your gonna change your feelings about someone you should atleast tell them before you go out with someone else and not lead them on

she messaged me on myspace and tells me something like if this is it between us i swear to god ill kill you were like best friends who else will read my mind? or something like that

so i decided to put her threw a little test to see if she even cares if we stay friends or not and, also so she can see what it feels like to lose someone she feels so close to

so i didnt respond to it and havent been on aim for 3 nights now and shes demoted me on myspace to number 8 on her top 8 and hasnt tried to get in touch with me so it just goes to show how much she really cares about our "friendship"

im starting to think we werent really friends she only talked to me cause she liked me and when i liked her back she was happy and we would have long conversations but once she started liking someone else she barely talked to me she would only say lol or say one word she dosent need me anymore and i dont need her, and i know theres a reason her feelings changed for me even though she said there isnt, its probably something like she found someone else who likes her thats better looking then i am, im chubby this guy is thin.

but what she dosent know and what brings me satisfaction on knowing is this guy dosent really like her. he just wants a girlfriend to have one. even in one of his blogs on myspace he says how hes looking for any girl to go out with but in particular one girl and he put her name in binary code and in a c++ code so only his nerd friends will know who she is. but i can read the c++ code as if it wasnt in code because i used to take c++ in high school and its like a second language to me (no im not a nerd i just needed the credits) so i know the girl that he really wants to go out withs name and let me tell you its not my "friend" and once the girl he likes breaks up with her boyfriend i know he will dump my "friend" to try his luck with her and my "friend" will have no one.