Dreams I used to give myself were always very self glorifying and, to be honest, based on the "luck" it would take me to achieve them...being a professional musician etc etc. It's only when I took my God given gifts and applied them in a logical, and morally positive way that opportunity came. If you live life thinking "what does life have for me", you do so in a selfish way, without love in your heart, and God has no reason to grant you a life you would live for yourself only; it would go towards nothing.

I'm not sure what you mean by faith in the high. Are you talking about being stoned? If that is the case than I'm sorry, you've devoted your life to the foolish mindset of intoxication...confusion, foolery. If you mean the "high" that life tends to give? I would say that it is very misleading (or at least can be). Great things happen in life to those who don't deserve it, that they might learn a little bit about life (usually they don't) In other words..the good things in life are a "chasing of the wind" because when you die, the "high" of this life dies with you. Whether life was good to you or not doesn't matter, because in the end our lives on earth are 70-ish years of being in the womb, before eternity.