something recently wrong with me

[beachguy in thongs]

Yeah, sometimes it gets in my eyes.

[sharpezor]

thanks to (you know who you are) for replying

ranger, i only smoke weed (almost every night) and sometimes i drink.

i was in a crazy mood last night (when i wrote it) and maybe i over dramatized it a bit. still, its a problem, i intend to correct and i believe i will. This may sound ridiculous to some of you but i think God can help me through anything and this is no exception.

and junkyard, that may very well be it lol

beach guy, did you go threw the forums and find those quotes? Amazing.

[GratefulDead4ever]

i get those exact feelings i thoght the blind rages were not common but i guess others have them i have some other thing which i think is differnet i black out and dont know what i do and luckily i have not caused harm to people but have broken things and then when the adrenaline dies down i feel worse than noraml rushes i feel like i want to die for what i did but the damage is done but lately have managaed to control them all i can say i got counciling and it helps

[i.m.high]

God can help you if you want him to.

Your anger sounds like a form of selfishness, coming from putting too much emphasis on self importance.

[Ganj]

Yeah, sometimes it gets in my eyes.

that shit sucks!

why is it when something isn't normal a person immediately thinks something is wrong? what if we're so intelligent that our brain is telling us something is infact wrong and you need to bail (a spider-sense, if you will), but our own ignorant conciousness is blank and clouded by "rationalizing" these problems?

what is rational? tricking yourself into believing nothing is wrong, or following your instinct? we're animals, too. i'd hate to believe that we, too, don't have extra-sensory features. the brain is a complex organ. it operates it's own, just like your lungs, livers, pancreas, etc. we, my friend are the vessels for this superior intelligence. given our senses we are able to experience the experienced. just a thought.

[Ganj]

i should change something about that last post. don't bail out. instead, recognize and solve. the answer is as clear as day. whether or not it can be put into a conversation, it can surely be put into a group of words. these group of words will seek out your problems and vanquish them.

[sharpezor]

God can help you if you want him to.

i know

Your anger sounds like a form of selfishness, coming from putting too much emphasis on self importance.
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i know, im trying to fix it

[Ganj]

as individuals we should realize that we are important. we are valuable. there are of course extremities. selfishness is taught.

[smoke ranger]

thanks to (you know who you are) for replying

ranger, i only smoke weed (almost every night) and sometimes i drink.

i was in a crazy mood last night (when i wrote it) and maybe i over dramatized it a bit. still, its a problem, i intend to correct and i believe i will. This may sound ridiculous to some of you but i think God can help me through anything and this is no exception.

and junkyard, that may very well be it lol

beach guy, did you go threw the forums and find those quotes? Amazing.

Im probably gonna be the only one to say this but I was really angray all the the sudden one day, and I kept getting more and more violent and mad everyday for a year, my grandma finally took me to the doc and he diagnosed the depression...said its common..my father also had it at that age...so if I were to make a real educated guess(since youre not withdrawing from any hard drugs, as you stated you only smopke)I would say you are depressed..I also thought that was crazy, "i wasnt depressed", but after a month on the meds I calmed down and things were a lot more cool, good luck brother

[Musician]

sometimes i think i need anger management.

ive never been an angry person, any time of my life. always kind of quiet and nice. but just this last few months, i just freak out sometimes. sometimes i get so angry at somebody i just ... shake or go into a blind rage and say things i shouldnâ??t. sometimes i think of beating the shit out of the person/people im mad at (I never do it). and after, i feel VERY bad for thinking such things, sometimes I even fel like crying or screaming. even little things like movies can make my emotions go crazy. I do my best to make it not visible to anyone around me.

it really sucks and i donâ??t want it to be like this. but i cant help it. Maybe its all the years of suppressing im finally going crazy. I should tell my doctor

and no im not a psycho, I feel I have stong love and compassion for my fellow man, its just that they CAN BE SO FUCKING annoying sometimes

i suggest you to try meditation. just concentrate on nothing, or good toughts. you need to find the reason of your problem tho, or else you will never solve it..

just see whats bad in your life or whatever. maybe its the city, as u said. maybe its something else.. u may want to consult someone that can help ya you know, its always good to do that

peace