well since we are all giving you medical advice, lol, I'll throw my 2 cents in

how old are you and what type of drugs/alcohol do you do and how much??

I ask cause outbursts can be many things, a way to get attention(you wont realize it either), you're depressed, or you could be bipolar(do you get mad and then a friend comes over you havent seen in a while and the "mad and anxious" feelings go away and you become extremely happy????)

LMK, I was diagnosed with bipolar syndrome and manic depression in my late teens, the meds help a lot-good luck sharpezor



S.Ranger