It sounds to me that you found a place where you could actually enjoy your buzz. Wasting a good buzz with paranoid thoughts doesnt seem to generate a good "high". I am glad for you that you found a place where the weed could roam freely in your mind.

dai*ma :rasta:
Enjoy yourself , it's later than you think
Enjoy yourself, while you're still in the pink
The years go by as quickly as a wink
enjoy yourself enjoy yourself
its later than you think