i cant think right when i am sober.. i mess things up, i cant get shit done, have trouble sleeping... or even staying sane.. i never knew what breaks were... i never missed a day getting high in the past 4 years atleast, and I am 18. (Except once... about a year and a half ago.. I went an entire month without smoking, its some hard stuff.)

It is all about staying entertained, getting the thought out of your head, forgetting...

BTW, i smoke for the high.. it feels good, slows down life a bit so i can get ahold of shit. i am quiting due to phyisical problems, possibly a pinched nerve.. or slipped disk, wont know tell next week for sure, but now when I get high I feel alot of pain..

I wish you good luck.. although it is mostly perservesnce. for me anyhow..