loving god???? who's god??? I dont beleive in the one of the bible
did you ever read any Jane Roberts "Seth material" books???
she goes into trance and another entity who calls himself Seth takes over. He wrote a whole bunch of books on the nature of reality. The content in them was like quantum physics but even vastly beyond
he proved himself time and time again with controlled experiments
"guessing package contents and that type of stuff"
It is in his books where I learned the choosing your life stuff
Did you ever hear of Edgar Cayce?????
he helped diagnose thousands of sick people while under hypnosis
he was exactly correct in his diagnosises