Quote Originally Posted by arcticspyder
Look, the only real answer that I can give you is, YES I think about suicide every single day, all day. I have a chronic illness and everyday it is a major struggle to keep the pill bottle upright. My own family has actually encouraged this becaue they reallize the level of pain that I suffer from. The words everyone always tels you "hang in there, things will get better." are simply bullshit because they don't understand and they never will. But what I have learned and I strongly believe is that, what we want out of life we must take, we must never give up, we must never lay down, we must never quit. Yes life sucks, yes lonely sucks, yes chronic accute pain sucks. WE MUST NEVER STOP TRYING. Please listen when people tell you, hold your head as high as you can, get out, do something anything, just don't sit and dwell. I wish you only the best, the struggle you fight is not yours alone.
I've been off line a while trying to get my head straight. and have come to realise alot of things about myself that i haven't been seeing for a long time, that i have the ability to beat this and plenty of reasons to win my fight with depression. i'm getting medical help and working with a community mental health team to help me over come my issues and the practical stuff to. i'm not there yet, not by a long shot but i have reached out for help and am getting it although getting help seemed like admitting defeat it was actually the beginning of my victory. i know now i will get there it will just take time.
i totally agree with alot that people have said on here. thanks!!!!!