I promise that isn't true. I worked for an agency that took kids from families that had problems. Worst job ever. But no matter what those parents had done to their kids, the kids still wanted to go home. They didn't want to be taken. They missed their parents.

It is normal for your kids to play each parent against eachother. Especially if the parents aren't together. You tell them no, and they want their daddy. They all do it. I know that doesn't help, my 3 year old wants daddy all day while daddy is at work and I am being me. Especially when I am dry. I have cried because "my son doesn't love me", or he "wants grandma more than me". I know how you feel. But please realize that this is all in your head. It is your depression, or anxiety, or whatever. We all have demons in our head that try to convince us of things.

No matter what, you gave birth to them, they are your's. That can never be replaced. Taking that from them will leave a HUGE void in their life.

Just do what you can to recognize your temperment, and do your best to control it. And never ever give up. You just can't, it isn't about you anymore.

And what about your mom or dad? Do you love them? Can you imagine what it would be like as a mom to loose one of your children? That is not natural. It happens, but it isn't supposed to be that way.

Eva