suicide

[potsmokingnome]

no doubt by posting this thread i'm gonna get two kinds of responses. the dont do it people, and the hey if thats what you want to do people.
but really i just want to know how many of you guys have felt like or tried suicide?
i never thought i could even attempt suicide thought i'd never be that depressed or feel so alone but i do, and i have no idea how to get my head out of this black hole, where the only way out seems to be death. Then never again would i have to deal with all the shit life throws at me, sorry for the deppressing tone of this thread.

I could never kill myself, NEVER! Life can allways be worse, is what has got me through all the shit in my life I have endured. When you kill yourself your not only ending your life, you are ending the lives of the ones that Love you, cause when you are a survivour of a suicide your life is never ever the same, you might as well of died as well along with the one you loved so damn much! Lossing to someone to suicide cause 10 fold the grief as it would have coming from a naturual cause. I know this first hand how it feels to be a surviour of suicide. so please when you have these thoughts try to think of the silver linning, or at least think of the ones that love you...

[soxsuk6432]

I used to consider suicidal because I am bipolar and when my OCD got really bad I thought about killing myself because back then I had HOCD which really made me get depressed but I just started smoking and I'm happy now.

[Heathers74]

Let me say this~ suicide is a permanent solution for a temp. problem. About 3 years ago, my brother commited suicide. I miss him every day and wish he was still here, don't make people miss you, it sucks.

[hubblebubble]

you cant kill your spirit

[devils dream]

Look, the only real answer that I can give you is, YES I think about suicide every single day, all day. I have a chronic illness and everyday it is a major struggle to keep the pill bottle upright. My own family has actually encouraged this becaue they reallize the level of pain that I suffer from. The words everyone always tels you "hang in there, things will get better." are simply bullshit because they don't understand and they never will. But what I have learned and I strongly believe is that, what we want out of life we must take, we must never give up, we must never lay down, we must never quit. Yes life sucks, yes lonely sucks, yes chronic accute pain sucks. WE MUST NEVER STOP TRYING. Please listen when people tell you, hold your head as high as you can, get out, do something anything, just don't sit and dwell. I wish you only the best, the struggle you fight is not yours alone.

I've been off line a while trying to get my head straight. and have come to realise alot of things about myself that i haven't been seeing for a long time, that i have the ability to beat this and plenty of reasons to win my fight with depression. i'm getting medical help and working with a community mental health team to help me over come my issues and the practical stuff to. i'm not there yet, not by a long shot but i have reached out for help and am getting it although getting help seemed like admitting defeat it was actually the beginning of my victory. i know now i will get there it will just take time.
i totally agree with alot that people have said on here. thanks!!!!!

[devils dream]

I could never kill myself, NEVER! Life can allways be worse, is what has got me through all the shit in my life I have endured. When you kill yourself your not only ending your life, you are ending the lives of the ones that Love you, cause when you are a survivour of a suicide your life is never ever the same, you might as well of died as well along with the one you loved so damn much! Lossing to someone to suicide cause 10 fold the grief as it would have coming from a naturual cause. I know this first hand how it feels to be a surviour of suicide. so please when you have these thoughts try to think of the silver linning, or at least think of the ones that love you...

thanks!!! i totally agree with you and i even had a list in my pocket of all the people i loved, family and who cared about me so that every time i started to feel as i was i'd take it out and read the names. helped!
i also got me two kittens for company.
xx

[miraz]

Wow. that is really good and i am truly happy for you. Although personally i dont knwo how hard it is. I can only imagine

[devils dream]

Let me say this~ suicide is a permanent solution for a temp. problem. About 3 years ago, my brother commited suicide. I miss him every day and wish he was still here, don't make people miss you, it sucks.

i'm sorry for your loss! and i'm happy to say i haven't been the cause of such pain in the lives of those who know me. and have no desire left to walk that path, lifes full of shit but i can make it better for myself and my kids at least!

[siSTARindigo]

Good for you Devils Dream......

So glad you feel better

Taking meds for depression is not defeat. It is survival.....Just like if you had Diabetes you would need meds to live. The brain is the one thing science can't seem to figure out. Depression/Anxiety is real......And good for you......