suicide

[devils dream]

no doubt by posting this thread i'm gonna get two kinds of responses. the dont do it people, and the hey if thats what you want to do people.
but really i just want to know how many of you guys have felt like or tried suicide?
i never thought i could even attempt suicide thought i'd never be that depressed or feel so alone but i do, and i have no idea how to get my head out of this black hole, where the only way out seems to be death. Then never again would i have to deal with all the shit life throws at me, sorry for the deppressing tone of this thread.

devils dream Reviewed by devils dream on 01-04-2006. suicide no doubt by posting this thread i'm gonna get two kinds of responses. the dont do it people, and the hey if thats what you want to do people. but really i just want to know how many of you guys have felt like or tried suicide? i never thought i could even attempt suicide thought i'd never be that depressed or feel so alone but i do, and i have no idea how to get my head out of this black hole, where the only way out seems to be death. Then never again would i have to deal with all the shit Rating: 5

[siSTARindigo]

I totally get where your coming from. I have definitly thought about it, tried it, and thought about it some more. I am not a religious freak. But I do now believe that suicide is NOT an option. People die when they are supposed to, whether it is at age 2 or age 102. This is the only reason I don't believe in capitol punishment. Everyone has an opinion, but nobody knows for a fact what happens. You say it will be over for good, but what if it isn't. What if reincarnation does exist, and "giving up" causes you next life to be worse? And what is god does exist, your human brain may not care, but you soul might be very ashamed having to face god after breaking your promise to come here and do whatever it is you were supposed to do here.

Do you have kids? I know some of those other things I said might make you say whatever. But if you have kids, they deserve to have you here.

Just my thought. I can empethize with you though, really.

Eva

[siSTARindigo]

I just read your profile, I am a stay at home bored mom too. If your ever want to chat my email is [email protected]

Eva

[devils dream]

i do have kids but my little girl wants to live with her dad and he could provide for them much better than i can. materialistic things arent everything i know but they would get every thing they need from him, and as for emotionally i'm a wreck moody and misserable all the time i get cross easily and cry alot no child needs to see their mum like that day in and day out, it cant be a healthy environment for them to grow up in.maybe it'd be better for them if i wasnt around screwing stuff up.

[siSTARindigo]

I promise that isn't true. I worked for an agency that took kids from families that had problems. Worst job ever. But no matter what those parents had done to their kids, the kids still wanted to go home. They didn't want to be taken. They missed their parents.

It is normal for your kids to play each parent against eachother. Especially if the parents aren't together. You tell them no, and they want their daddy. They all do it. I know that doesn't help, my 3 year old wants daddy all day while daddy is at work and I am being me. Especially when I am dry. I have cried because "my son doesn't love me", or he "wants grandma more than me". I know how you feel. But please realize that this is all in your head. It is your depression, or anxiety, or whatever. We all have demons in our head that try to convince us of things.

No matter what, you gave birth to them, they are your's. That can never be replaced. Taking that from them will leave a HUGE void in their life.

Just do what you can to recognize your temperment, and do your best to control it. And never ever give up. You just can't, it isn't about you anymore.

And what about your mom or dad? Do you love them? Can you imagine what it would be like as a mom to loose one of your children? That is not natural. It happens, but it isn't supposed to be that way.

Eva

[beachguy in thongs]

no doubt by posting this thread i'm gonna get two kinds of responses. the dont do it people, and the hey if thats what you want to do people.

Wrong!
I'm less of a "wait-and-see" guy. I don't think of consequences, just understand them.

Every single person on the planet comprehends suicide and knows it's consequences, so therefore, every single person must have thought about it.

Damn, Man!, why the fuck would someone take themselves out of a world where all they have to do is turn on the computer to get anywhere, or anything, they want? Just so they can be buried, cremated, or incapacitated? Then, they can't even turn on the computer.

[devils dream]

i'm still here and i guess thats coz i'm fighting the biggest fight i've ever had, living when i want to give up.
it's hard to believe you mean any thing to any one when your sat alone its too late to call anyone and when you dont want to burden them especially not in the middle of the night. its just you and your thoughts and feelings gong round in your head and all you want is to stop it, the only reason i'm still alive is because after taking enough alcohol and anti depressants and pain killers to put myself to sleep (before finishing what i started) i was woken by a police man holding a torch at my face in the early hours my friend called them said he was worried about me,so they came to check.
i was out of it and just told em i was drunk they were happy with that and told me my friend was with them could they let him up seeing the look in his face and knowing that as a cannabis lover and dealer, it must have been bad for him to call the police usually they are to be avoided at all cost.
he see's something in me which at the moment i dont, i'm hoping he is right!

[brewdy]

depression is painful ... it is an epedemic in the US. One thing i'm sorry
i must tell you ... many survivors or suicide say they felt a feelng of
"eternal damnation" related to their actions. Hang in there, they're
tons of us suffering ... you're in good company. Remember ....
you won't like "eternal damnation".
Rob

[Stfu its Matthew]

wow that kinda sucks maybe i should be more nicer to my mom i never really thought about that even tho i am really nice maybe i should just be nicer or somthing wow... this kinda opened my eyes up



depression is not a laughing matter though ive had it but just tell urself everythings ok u have a life to live for and u want to see ur kids grow up and or want to have kids couse i know i do and just think of the happy times and like uhhhhh kinda try to avoid thinking of bad times

[arcticspyder]

no doubt by posting this thread i'm gonna get two kinds of responses. the dont do it people, and the hey if thats what you want to do people.
but really i just want to know how many of you guys have felt like or tried suicide?
i never thought i could even attempt suicide thought i'd never be that depressed or feel so alone but i do, and i have no idea how to get my head out of this black hole, where the only way out seems to be death. Then never again would i have to deal with all the shit life throws at me, sorry for the deppressing tone of this thread.

Look, the only real answer that I can give you is, YES I think about suicide every single day, all day. I have a chronic illness and everyday it is a major struggle to keep the pill bottle upright. My own family has actually encouraged this becaue they reallize the level of pain that I suffer from. The words everyone always tels you "hang in there, things will get better." are simply bullshit because they don't understand and they never will. But what I have learned and I strongly believe is that, what we want out of life we must take, we must never give up, we must never lay down, we must never quit. Yes life sucks, yes lonely sucks, yes chronic accute pain sucks. WE MUST NEVER STOP TRYING. Please listen when people tell you, hold your head as high as you can, get out, do something anything, just don't sit and dwell. I wish you only the best, the struggle you fight is not yours alone.