Dynasty your so self controled right?
Heres a Quote from one of your threads.

After I had my daughter, I had post partum depression and wanted to lay on train tracks. Then i smoked a joint and came to my senses. So it helps, but one of my doctors said that pot can contribute to depression and makes people dependent on it. It all depends on you and what's going on in your head. All I know is after I smoked a doobie, I didn't feel like laying on train tracks.UnQuote.

Again check into step 1 of the 12 step program
and just skip to 4 and take a good look at yourself.
I hear the train ah commin its rollin round the bend.......
Chew Chew Baby Chew Chew!