Well, the New Year has come and I vowed to myself to do my self improvement plan. This includes:

1. Improvement in School - I am in 12th grade and I am failing 4 classes at the moment. Fortunately all of these classes are about 2 points from passing level, but I have never failed a course in my life and I really really want to go to college next year

2. Excercise - Haven't been doing too much lately, I used to work out all the time but I haven't had any time. I'm going to make time now.

3. Quitting Marijuana - I am officially going cold turkey on marijuana until April. I have been smoking nearly every day lately and it has really made me a lot less motivated, and I can tell that I am gaining a psychological dependence on the drug.

Anyways, today was the last day of my life as a marijuana smoker and I wanted to make it special. I called up my dealer and bought a half ounce, rolled it up into 2 blunts, a fat joint, a few bowls, and saved the rest for the bong my friend was letting me borrow. No one at my house was home all day long (like 9 AM until 12 at night) so I went commando.

Good weed is only better with good food, so I went to the grocery store and stocked up on all kinds of sweets and junk food, all of the stuff I have decided I will not eat anymore for awhile. Bought myself a 25$ New York Strip steak for dinner.

I woke up about 9:42 AM and it was crappy weather but I didn't care. All I wanted to do was make this day the best I could. I *literally* waked and baked with my joint, putting it right in my bedside droor and pulling it out when I woke up. I lit it up and it was great. I put on some Bob Marley and played a little xbox. I called up my friend about the bong and he said he would bring it over after work around 6. Anyways, I chilled for about an hour and decided to have some breakfast. My breakfast was an entire box (like 4 packs) of strawberry pop-tarts and some Eggo waffles.

After that I decided to let my food sit for awhile (I was stuffed) and then smoke a blunt. I listened to a bit of music and then when it was time, I brought out my first blunt, fruit punch by Ez-Roll (ezrolls are so delicious) and smoked it down. Now when you're alone and smoking an entire blunt, you get fucked up. Not just high, you get stupid. I was completely gone, laughing my ass off, and feeling absolutely great. I was listening to The Doors and singing along to Touch Me, screaming the words as loud as I possibly could when he says "Come on come on come on come on now..." and just having a great time. I realized that I forgot one of my favorite smoking methods, the gravity bong. I immediately went into the kitchen and got the materials I needed to make it. It was tough to make because I was pretty stoned but they aren't overwhelming. Once I was finished I put it in some water. I almost lit up the bowl when I remembered the ice cube method, so I went to the freezer and dumped 4 trays of ice into the pot that I put my GB in. Mixed it around a bit, the water was chillingly cold, and I took my hit. It felt like a ciggarette. I barely felt I needed to cough, the smoke was just a tingly feeling in the back of my throat. Now I was beyond high, I probably sat on my couch just thinking about things for an hour.

It was about 3 o clock and I watched a movie I got for christmas (The 40 Year Old Virgin) and laughed hysterically . For some reason, I wasn't even THINKING that I had to quit tommorow, I was just fully enjoying the blaze I was in.

After the movie ended my friend arrived. Iwas getting really really bored just being high by myself (it's always better to smoke with people for me) so I invited him in to smoke too. We loaded up his bong and it took us away, this thing is a beautiful 2 foot 3 chamber monster he calls Hurricane Jane (after Mary Jane obviously).

I asked him if he wanted to stay for dinner and he said why not, so we made the steaks and stuff, it was delicious.

So now it's about 8 o clock and he had to go, so I'm left all alone with enough weed for 3 bowls or so. I load up the first two and smoke them pretty fast, and finally I get to the last one. The last bowl I'll have for months. This was it. I grabbed my iPod and put on "The End" by The Doors which completely defined the mood I was in. I sat on my floor in the corner quietly enjoying my bowl with a lump the size of a baseball in my throat. I almost shed a tear.

It's very tough to know that you won't be able to smoke for the next few months and that you'll have to do schoolwork and lift weights a lot. It's not a fun life but it's definitely necessary.

Perhaps I'll take a few days from february break and smoke up, just so I don't go crazy.


P.S. If this post was stupid and pointless to you then I'm sorry, but I needed to let it out. Plus, I want to look back in April on this and see how I feel about it.

Light one up for me! This is going to be difficult
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