Very Tough Night (long read)

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Well, the New Year has come and I vowed to myself to do my self improvement plan. This includes:

1. Improvement in School - I am in 12th grade and I am failing 4 classes at the moment. Fortunately all of these classes are about 2 points from passing level, but I have never failed a course in my life and I really really want to go to college next year

2. Excercise - Haven't been doing too much lately, I used to work out all the time but I haven't had any time. I'm going to make time now.

3. Quitting Marijuana - I am officially going cold turkey on marijuana until April. I have been smoking nearly every day lately and it has really made me a lot less motivated, and I can tell that I am gaining a psychological dependence on the drug.

Anyways, today was the last day of my life as a marijuana smoker and I wanted to make it special. I called up my dealer and bought a half ounce, rolled it up into 2 blunts, a fat joint, a few bowls, and saved the rest for the bong my friend was letting me borrow. No one at my house was home all day long (like 9 AM until 12 at night) so I went commando.

Good weed is only better with good food, so I went to the grocery store and stocked up on all kinds of sweets and junk food, all of the stuff I have decided I will not eat anymore for awhile. Bought myself a 25$ New York Strip steak for dinner.

I woke up about 9:42 AM and it was crappy weather but I didn't care. All I wanted to do was make this day the best I could. I *literally* waked and baked with my joint, putting it right in my bedside droor and pulling it out when I woke up. I lit it up and it was great. I put on some Bob Marley and played a little xbox. I called up my friend about the bong and he said he would bring it over after work around 6. Anyways, I chilled for about an hour and decided to have some breakfast. My breakfast was an entire box (like 4 packs) of strawberry pop-tarts and some Eggo waffles.

After that I decided to let my food sit for awhile (I was stuffed) and then smoke a blunt. I listened to a bit of music and then when it was time, I brought out my first blunt, fruit punch by Ez-Roll (ezrolls are so delicious) and smoked it down. Now when you're alone and smoking an entire blunt, you get fucked up. Not just high, you get stupid. I was completely gone, laughing my ass off, and feeling absolutely great. I was listening to The Doors and singing along to Touch Me, screaming the words as loud as I possibly could when he says "Come on come on come on come on now..." and just having a great time. I realized that I forgot one of my favorite smoking methods, the gravity bong. I immediately went into the kitchen and got the materials I needed to make it. It was tough to make because I was pretty stoned but they aren't overwhelming. Once I was finished I put it in some water. I almost lit up the bowl when I remembered the ice cube method, so I went to the freezer and dumped 4 trays of ice into the pot that I put my GB in. Mixed it around a bit, the water was chillingly cold, and I took my hit. It felt like a ciggarette. I barely felt I needed to cough, the smoke was just a tingly feeling in the back of my throat. Now I was beyond high, I probably sat on my couch just thinking about things for an hour.

It was about 3 o clock and I watched a movie I got for christmas (The 40 Year Old Virgin) and laughed hysterically . For some reason, I wasn't even THINKING that I had to quit tommorow, I was just fully enjoying the blaze I was in.

After the movie ended my friend arrived. Iwas getting really really bored just being high by myself (it's always better to smoke with people for me) so I invited him in to smoke too. We loaded up his bong and it took us away, this thing is a beautiful 2 foot 3 chamber monster he calls Hurricane Jane (after Mary Jane obviously).

I asked him if he wanted to stay for dinner and he said why not, so we made the steaks and stuff, it was delicious.

So now it's about 8 o clock and he had to go, so I'm left all alone with enough weed for 3 bowls or so. I load up the first two and smoke them pretty fast, and finally I get to the last one. The last bowl I'll have for months. This was it. I grabbed my iPod and put on "The End" by The Doors which completely defined the mood I was in. I sat on my floor in the corner quietly enjoying my bowl with a lump the size of a baseball in my throat. I almost shed a tear.

It's very tough to know that you won't be able to smoke for the next few months and that you'll have to do schoolwork and lift weights a lot. It's not a fun life but it's definitely necessary.

Perhaps I'll take a few days from february break and smoke up, just so I don't go crazy.


P.S. If this post was stupid and pointless to you then I'm sorry, but I needed to let it out. Plus, I want to look back in April on this and see how I feel about it.

Light one up for me! This is going to be difficult

pixel Reviewed by pixel on 01-03-2006. Very Tough Night (long read) Well, the New Year has come and I vowed to myself to do my self improvement plan. This includes: 1. Improvement in School - I am in 12th grade and I am failing 4 classes at the moment. Fortunately all of these classes are about 2 points from passing level, but I have never failed a course in my life and I really really want to go to college next year 2. Excercise - Haven't been doing too much lately, I used to work out all the time but I haven't had any time. I'm going to make time now. Rating: 5

[Midnight Baker]

Nothing wrong with this, you wet out in a blaze of glory literally. Kudos for you seeing what you need to do in the up coming months and taking that step to make it happen. All the best my good man.

[Kid Dynamite]

dude why do you have to make so mcuh of a deal about quitting. It cant be the sole reason that your failing etc. Why dont you just work a little harder and smoke up a little less. No need to stop totally.

[daima]

You seemed to of found a crutch. Dont blame cannabis for your lack of motivation. Blame yourself. Cannabis is probably the last thing that unmotivates a person. Cannabis does however have the ability to expose those things that you are doing that really arent worthwhile.
Dont point to things that will get you the most sympathy for your fuck-ups.
If i were a prohibitionist i would print your story on all anti-cannabis websites. What a courageous person you are for finally admitting that cannabis is fucking up your life. gee whiz and wowie. fucking loser.
You get no sympathy from me.

dai*ma

[FieldofHerb22]

You seemed to of found a crutch. Dont blame cannabis for your lack of motivation. Blame yourself. Cannabis is probably the last thing that unmotivates a person. Cannabis does however have the ability to expose those things that you are doing that really arent worthwhile.
Dont point to things that will get you the most sympathy for your fuck-ups.
If i were a prohibitionist i would print your story on all anti-cannabis websites. What a courageous person you are for finally admitting that cannabis is fucking up your life. gee whiz and wowie. fucking loser.
You get no sympathy from me.

dai*ma

Why do you gotta be so hard on the kid? It's his decision. Maybe he doesn't want to find himself working for McDonalds 20 years from now still blazing everday cuz he didn't get the grades. He should be concentrating on math instead of what strain or junk food to try next then blaze after HS! Weed may be harmless but it does cause motivation loss in some. I hate you fucking pricks that think weed is perfect. It's great but know the facts ass.

Although my brother blazes all the time and he is acing in HS. Unforuntely I am like the dude above....I failed everything too :stoned:

[daima]

Tough on the kid? please. We cannabis users have been hit over the head time after time with this type of handy when needed drugwar/marijuana war rhetoric. The fact is that even lazy ass losers end up using marijuana and when the times comes convenient they jump on the "pot made me do this, or stop me from doing that" bandwagon. Ya see. pot makes me very motivated. Especially motivated to put an end to the war on cannabis and those who use it.

dai*ma Dont blame me for my comments. Pot made me speak them.

[Dankmike]

im with daima on this one. hes right you cant let people stereotype pot smokers cause then they win and they lose.

[daima]

focus on math? FYI, drugs/cannabis has taught a whole generation of americas kids the metric system. lmao.
That being said......, i believe that all people of the earth are entitled to my opinion. :dance:

To suggest that cannabis users will spend a life time working at Mc"ds is about as ignorant as any drug war rhetoric i have heard.
I wouldnt even eat a mc'ds, let alone work at one.

dai*ma

[GanjaASD847]

I think your resolution for the New Year is absolutely fabulous! Iâ??m going to cut back on my marijuana use as well, but Iâ??m not quitting because it obviously affects you in a completely different way than me. Herb helps me sleep! Therefore, I donâ??t necessary smoke to get high I smoke to sleep.

Although, I am in great shape already I have decided to start back up with daily yoga and mediation practice. I feel like when I practice those two things; I feel balanced/centered.

[daima]

Life is hard, but life is hardest when you're dumb
You stop smoking pot, still inspiration never comes
with a negative IQ, you'll be lonesome sad and blue
life is hard, but life is hardest when you're dumb
The thoughts you have remain unheard
because you cannot find the words
life is hard, but life is hardest when you're dumb

Cheers to all of the people who have tried everything, who have put down everything, and have used everything for an excuse. May your path one day widen to looking at yourself.

dai*ma
My new years resolution is no different than the resolutions i have when i wake-up every day. I hope one day that i myself will be able to understand that the longer i work on a problem, the longer i keep the problem.