Well said Puff. And like I've been told "suicide is a permant solution to a temporary problem that puts you in a worse situation than you were in to begin with"

Quote Originally Posted by puff4twentynow
Well it sounds to me that you don't like responsibility. I say that because you said that you want to be able to enjoy weed like when you were 14 again, "carefree". Now that your older, accepting what you can not change is the hard part. I don't like what has become of this world either and i have had thoughts of suicide since i was 11. I'm still here cause i'm too much of a bitch to kill myself. Also i believe in God and i don't want to go to hell.

If you don't like the life you live then why not change it. Start by changing what you can and try not to worry about things that you cannot. Marijuana helps you concentrate and focus and sometimes helps you forget as well. While high, try not to think about what gets you depressed. Or maybe you can do something you enjoy to do while high instead of just sitting their with your thoughts.

Nobody wants to grow up but we just have to. How is your sex life? Are you getting enough tail? I know that when i feel down, pussy, like MJ, always make me feel better!!!!!

I've been to alcoholics anonymous meetings to help me stop drinking. I no longer drink but my point to this is that at the end of these meetings, everyone would get in a big huddle and say a prayer. "God, grant me the serenity to know there are some things that i cannot change, the courage to change the things that i can and the wisdom to know the difference". When i feel suicidal or something is bothering me, i say this prayer. Before i know it, i am thinking about a way to solve my problem.

Don't worry about the world unless your in a position to change it. If your not in a position to change everyones world then don't worry about the world. Do what you can to make your world better. If and when you decide that your happy, then the rest of the world will seem happy to you too. Suicide is not the answer to anything. It only creates trouble and heartache for those who truly do care for you. Think about them and not yourself when it comes to killing yourself, don't do it. I hope this helps you a little.

Puff