That's cool that you're girlfriend means so much to you, but I'd try to think of other positive things; if something happened between y'all you'd be in a heap of trouble. I would start writing down all the things that are good and what you have to be thankful for. Such as....

As much as we dog on the government here, we still do have alot of freedom in the U.S. that folks in other countries can only dream of.

You probably have good health and live life relatively free of physical pain

You can see, hear, read & write, have a roof over your head, a computer and food to eat.

If you get too down, go live in the woods, build a shelter of sticks and palmetto leaves and eat grubs and grasshoppers and drink some pine needle tea for a couple of days, or weeks...that may help put things in perspective. I haven't done it for more than a couple of days (didn't actually eat bugs...brought some water & dried food) but it has helped. WHenever I get down I think of doing it again...living off the land away from all the bombardment of what the world throws at us and it makes me feel better.