Ive been there, and said those words. tyhe lesson u gotta learn is that theres a time for everything. learn from your expiriences and most of all dont let anyone's (ur parent's especially) wishes make you go against what u feel is right. wehn i got caught i stopped for a good 3 months. im not really sure what got me back into it but i realized i was a much happier person with some green in my life. roll with the punches for now and do what u want.