I understand everything you stated. In '99, I was in an accident and suffered a tbi. Since then, I really had a problem with my anger and I'd say really f^*ked up sh*t to people without even thinking. Anyway, I started getting high and it's helped me so much. I'm no longer the crazed b*tch that I used to be,lol....all joking aside, marijuana is by far a blessing to me. Alas, I live in Jersey and its not prescribed here. Have a nice day!