Ya man, I totally understand. I was raised to believe "Go to church every Sunday, Don't cuss, Don't smoke, Don't drink.." on and on. Until one day, I decided if God was real, I had to know. I sought whole heartedly to find out, and because I KNOW HIM, I believe. Everyone should seek him, just once. I discoved God don't care what I do (Drink, Smoke ect..) He just wants something better for me