I think I'm fixated with death and yet I'm not. I've had my dad, sister, grandpa, friends, cousins, uncles, and aunts die. And they were all pretty recent. like in the past 2 yrs maybe 3. I'm not afraid of death, thats for sure. I think I could say I'm just waiting on it. I dont wish to die nor do I wish to live.I want to see how it feels though, I want to know what goes through your mind that sec. beofre,..........