me too cambam, I remember when I took my 1st pill - I was thinking 'what if I die now?' but its just shit put into your head by people who dont want you to take it and have a great time.
Everyone is entitled to their opinion. I would never try crack or anything, so maybe I too have been brainwashed but everyone has their limits and threshold and nobody should force anyone into trying something if they dont want to.
I guess you just gotta listem to yourself and what might be ok for you, might not be ok for the next person.

In my opinion though, E is quite safe if you do it right. Its so hard to describe the amazingness of it unless you have tried it.