Please Read My Story [Trichome Creator To You]

[Trichome Creator]

Hello once again to each and every single one of you. I had posted a thread earlier today about my immature behavior in the Cannabis Lounge. I had also mentioned briefly a few things that have been going on in my life for the past couple months and told you all that I was leaving this forum for good. A couple hours after that post I came back just to see what kind of derogatory remarks people made about me or I assumed they would. When I found the thread I began to read through the various postings by members to find to my surprise that people were actually concerned about me and were asking me to come back. I certainly did not expect people who don't even know me to have genuine concern for me. I must tell you all something that most of you probably already know. This forum you all share is a very special place in which I have never imagined to exist on the internet. When your here you can actually see the closeness people share with one another. This place is one of a kind and can never be replaced or duplicated because of good and warm hearted people like you. Every single one of you make it feel like a second home to me when I am alone or have nobody to talk to. In the past couple of days I have defiled this wonderful place with my immature remarks and the disgusting image that I posted. I have apologized once before but I feel that it needs to be said again. I am regretful of making a mockery out of this website. I actually offended and angered real people. It is not always easy to remember that there are real people on the other side of our computer screens with real emotions such as yours or mine. I am so terribly sorry to each and everyone of you for my immature behavior and I truly mean that from the bottom of my heart. I would like to ask for a few more moments of your time because the truth is I desperately need somebody to talk to right now more than anything in this entire world. I would like to share some of the recent moments of my life with you all if you will take the time to listen. I just recently moved away from the Washington, DC area to a new state just over two months ago in order to fulfill my family's life long dream to live in the southeast close to the beach and to also give my beautiful wife the opportunity to go to a particular college she has always wanted to attend. I have been married to this woman for five years and we have four beautiful children together three of which are a result of our marriage together. When I first met her she was in a relationship with her now ex-husband who was constantly physically and mentally abusive to her and kept her from having any contact with other people or having any friends for over seven years. She had grown tired of his ways and wanted to leave him for several months before we ever met each other however she had a little girl with him and continued to tolerate his abusiveness for her sake and for lack of anywhere else to go. I was driving a taxi at the time and got a call to pick up a young woman at a residence. When I arrived I saw this beautiful woman with vibrant green eyes and a gentle voice. We fell in love with each other at first sight. I helped her and the little girl to get away from this cold evil pitiful excuse for a man. He did not give up easily and I had to physically attack him on several occasions in order for him to stop stalking us. He treated them like nothing more than a possession and acted like I was nothing more than a thief. I am happy to say that now the little girl I spoke of is my stepdaughter. I now wish to bring you back to just over two months ago when we moved to our current home in our new state. We had already secured a rental home via phone and internet from the Washington, DC area before we moved to the southeast and all we had left to do was pay the deposit and first month's rent when we arrived. When my family and I finally arrived at our new house after our nine hour drive we discovered to our horror we were standing in the middle of a very rundown and violent neighborhood. I got out of the moving truck with my wife still inside and looked around in disbelief and at that moment I heard a gunshot in the not too far distance followed by a hysterical woman's screaming. I instantly got on my cellular phone and called my mother who happens to live with us and was fifteen minutes behind me in our van on the road with my four children inside. I remember my exact words to her they were "I don't care where you go just don't come to the place we are supposed to be living. I want you to go to a restaurant any restaurant I don't care and feed the kids and call me back when you get there!" She responded with "Why what's wrong?" and I replied "We'll talk later just do it!" I got back into the moving truck and just stared at my wife. We knew at that moment there was no way we were going to raise our children in that neighborhood even if we had no other options and it meant homelessness. We spent that night in a cheap motel room putting the kids to bed and staying up all night trying to figure out what to do. We would take what money we had left we had saved and try to find another rental house. Three more days went by of seven people living in a cheap motel until by the grace of god we found a rental home on such short notice. After our second day of moving into our new place I was fortunate enough to find a new good paying job. Everything seemed to be coming together just as we hoped it finally would. Seven days after living in our new home things took a turn for the worst. My wife, mother, five month old daughter, two year old son, four year old son, ten year old stepdaughter and myself were driving to the store to buy some things for the house when In a blinding instant out of nowhere a red pickup truck smashed into the front of our van at over forty miles an hour. In a mere second everything started to shake violently as the sounds of screeching metal filled the air. Then there was total silence for a few seconds as white smoke filled the cabin of our vehicle. That perfect silence was then broken by the screams of my wife, mother and children. Those horrible sounds that you never want to hear again quickly brought me back to reality. I looked around frantically to see if everyone was alive and not seriously injured then unstrapped the kids car seats as fast as humanly possible. It then dawned on me we were still in the middle of the road so I began to scream at the top of my lungs for my wife and mother to get the hell out and take some of the children with them. I watched my family stagger to the roadside and fall on the grass. Then my wife got back up checked our kids with me. She then fell back into shock and started wandering around in circles while my mother was just staring blankly at our now demolished vehicle with tears starting to come out of her eyes. I have never felt so helpless in my entire life until that moment. I didn't even notice that my own left shoulder was gashed open, nose was bleeding and glass frames were broken until the police officer brought it to my attention. We all rode in two separate ambulances to the local hospital for medical treatment. Thankfully everyone recovered fully except myself. I underwent two CT Scans and was diagnosed with several ruptured blood vessels in my cerebellum and something else in the same area of my brain they call an anomaly or artifact. I am scheduled for a MRI and an EGG for later this month. I used to be a laid back and easy going person but now at certain times I act like a monster. This aggressiveness and combativeness just comes out of nowhere. I sometimes find myself trying to do a task and just drift off into space for a few moment staring at nothing in particular. I really wish I knew what was wrong with me but no one seems to have an answer to give. My wife got sick of my shit and took the kids and left this morning because of my recent disposition but thank god she returned this evening. I don't know what I would do if she ever left me or If I ever lost my four babies. If all of this wasn't enough the accident report blamed the accident completely on the other driver and it is well documented on the police report however his insurance company State Farm has denied all responsibility of the claim and will not replace our vehicle or pay us anything at all in damages and injuries. So I hired one of those "We don't collect until you win lawyers" but they say we can't even begin to settle the claim for at least four months. My doctor's won't let me go back to work due to the closed head trauma I endured and my rent is two months late. Not a damn penny with christmas right around the corner and not a single present for any of my kids. We are lucky to be eating thanks to my wife going down to social services on a city bus. Ain't life just fucking grand? I'd kill for just one joint to take these god awful headaches away and so I could get off these damn percocet prescriptions they keep feeding me except I don't know a soul here who smokes or sells. So in closing I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused and I'd like to come back to my home away from home if you all can put up with me.

Thank you all for listening to what I had to say. It means the world to me.

Peace To You All.

Trichome Creator Reviewed by Trichome Creator on 12-03-2005. Please Read My Story [Trichome Creator To You] Hello once again to each and every single one of you. I had posted a thread earlier today about my immature behavior in the Cannabis Lounge. I had also mentioned briefly a few things that have been going on in my life for the past couple months and told you all that I was leaving this forum for good. A couple hours after that post I came back just to see what kind of derogatory remarks people made about me or I assumed they would. When I found the thread I began to read through the various Rating: 5

[Roadking]

That's a lot of words. Cool, though.

I just took two hits from a Maui (sp?) joint someone gave me. Two hits...that's all.

Two hits.

Everything is cool, yo.

[Bman719]

I'm really quite speechless... I can't say I know what to say. The one thing that does stick out in my mind, was the fact that you were man enough to admit your mistakes and that you were wrong... not an easy task for anyone to do, even on the internet. I'm sure we've all said one thing or another that offended someone at one point in time... intentional or not... but it's the people that can actually admit that they were wrong that seem to gain at least a partial amount of the respect that they may have lost, back. With all your family issues, medical issues, and even mental issues... I wish I would be able to say "I know where you're coming from"... but I don't know if I could comprehend and actually deal with what happened to you, should it ever occur to myself. Hell, I consider it shitty that I lost my job (owner shut the store down without notice) and then getting rear-ended in a car accident, and being piss broke to top it all off. But my situation wasn't anything close to what you have gone through. When dealing with stress... we say a lot of shit we don't mean, myself included... but hell, no one's perfect. I can't say I really ever read posts as long as the one you wrote... but I did take the time to read every word you wrote in the post... for the sole fact... that it was serious, down to earth... and something I felt that needed to be read. I doubt many of us have gone through the ordeal that you have... let alone how fast and quickly all your problems had arose. I am happy to hear that no one was killed in the car accident, and I truly do hope that you recover back to 100% and hope that things start to go right in your life once more. I hope everything works out for you, and on top of that... hope you continue to post on the forums... because there aren't very many people that speak from the heart on the forums.... whatever the outcome... I wish you the very best.

[king kong bong]

my bro was in a car accident and the case had been going on for 4 years. a few days ago he went to trial for his settlement and they fuckin jerked him and his 2 friends. they gave his friend 115,000(he's had numerous surgeries due to the accident), my bro 55,000(had surgery on his knee) and his other friend 10,000(75% of his back is herniated discs). thats before they take out the fees and whatnot. the fucked up thing was the defense was questioning their character by calling them criminals. my bro was never convicted of a felony, dunno bout the 2 other guys, but what the fuck does that have to do with anything? on top of that the judge was an asshole. SO FUCK THE LAW AND COURT SYSTEM.

[OzzyOz]

i'm sorry to hear that man, i hope things get better.

[maskedpantsman]

My attention span commited suicide as soon as the page loaded.

[lardman]

Trichome, man, that was one long story. But very very interesting, and sad. I am very sorry for everything that has happened to you. Know that i have been getting older into my teenage years(15) i have started to realize life is pretty fucked up at times, usually depressing with stupid hardships like those fuckers @ State Farm. If there is anything i could do i would love to help. I could send you some bud (free) im in the Holiday spirit of giving, and maybe a few presents for your kids, i dont know. I hope the very best to you in so many ways. I would really really love to help you out, it would bring me joy. IF you would like to contact me, email me @ [email protected] and if !!!!OH FUCK I JUST SAT ON MY BALLS!!!! OWWEEE OWWW OWWWW UUGGGHH!!! ok, sorry bought that............imp: lmao, or you can contact me here, or if u have any messengers:
MSN: my email Yahoo!: smokeyb111 aim: lardmanarchy

Hope things get better for you, Happy Holidays


PEACE

[lardman]

My attention span commited suicide as soon as the page loaded.

LMFAO :dance: :dance: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: That was fucking great man LMFAO


imp:

[Trichome Creator]

Thanks to all of you who could endure the long story. I appreciate it.

[lardman]

You are very welcome, but we should be thanking you for letting us hear your story. So would like anything? Id love to help...you might not want me to or something becuz of my age (15) but that doesnt affect how i treat people. :thumbsup: