Oh, Kronic, you're not alone...I've felt that way before. You were in love, that's all, and now it's just easier to be with ppl you don't care for. I know exactly how you feel...that totally wrecked, destroyed feeling. Yep, been there, hope I never have to go back. The good news is the feeling does go away and you'll be able to move on to another caring relationship. Tha bad part is that it may take quite a while to feel like it's worth it. My advice, is do what you have to do to get over it and make sure it's always safe sex. Good luck, I promise you'll feel better sooner or later.