caruso,
I have been there, and beyond. I have been desperate. I have been empty.
I have felt the void inside. I have been consumed by my own shadows.
Slowly I surfaced, and eventually, I awoke.
I left it behind. But I clearly remember those desperate moments, the bugs in my head scratching, the emptiness, the sensation of detatchment, and the fleeting comfort that the word 'suicide' brought.

I can remember it in my mind, but my heart has forgotten.

The pain that I thought would never end at some point faded into nothingness.
It amazes me that I have grown from immesurable suffering to a strong, determined man who can face anything life has in store.
With the support of friends and family and a little faith I changed my path. Now I look back and see how wrong I was about life in those desperate times.
I can share with you what I learned and how it helped me.
Feel free to email me anytime. I offer you my insight and to share a little about my own dark times and what I did to grow from it ,with the hopes even a scrap of it can help you in some way. Dont worry I wont preach religeon or try to get you to join my cult.
sage_wisdom(at)hushmail(dot)com


Keep your friend near.
peace.