just let go. think positive and everything will work out for you, trust me. my father is a deadbeat who never did anything with me and my brothers or showed us affection of any kind. my mum is a violent alcoholic who drinks everyday, she's a nasty cunt. theres nothing i can do for em so im gettin my life together so i can move on. so i kinda understand the shit you might be going through. so dont do nothing rash just ride it out. only through struggle can you prevail on top.