Quote Originally Posted by NightProwler
i used to have friends like that, always talking behind my back and i finally ditched them
I thought about doing that, too. Like I said though, my thoughts go unjustified. It's just myself being irrational, having an excessive self-importance issue. I've often tried to conform myself to meet the 'standards' of my friends. I lost myself. Your personality is engraved in you. Once you change that, nothing but hard-ache wil emerge. My mother has the same issue. Paranoia, that is. Luckily, I just found this out after having a heart-to-heart with her and it's brought me to a better understanding. If I think back far enough I can actually pinpoint the very moment that these feelings started getting to me. That's when I felt I needed to change myself. Basically, I didn't think things out as well as I should have. If my friends didn't like me or they were constantly talking shit, would they still be hanging out with me? I obviously didn't change too much.
Ganj Reviewed by Ganj on . Strange Days I'm overwhelmed by this feeling of betrayal... I don't whether to blame it on paranoia or what? I was hanging out with some friends the other day and all was well. Everything was fine until late in the evening. I've been trying to figure out how I could be better company around people because a lot of the time I don't feel like that's what I'm bringing. It's actually really stupid of me because I get allow my mind to get caught up in these simple, benign, comments (made by friends) and I Rating: 5