its nice to get a break once in a while...but usually, when i do drugs, its to know a different reality...kinda like an explorer...to feel emotions usually not present in sober life...

i dont believe i will live older than 40...but i aim to be like a shooting star...only around briefly, but for that memorable time, the brightests light in the sky...

speaking of lights...my lamp is blinking on and off...

i know how i am going to die...sometimes i have dreams over and over again, and they usually pertain to my life...well ive had the dream of dying while looking into a mirror about 25 times now...

what i saw in the mirror was fear, fear of what i have found...