You gotta get your education locked down first. Whether you use it later is all up to you. Being a H.S graduate is hard enough trying to cope in this world. It would've been much easier to stay in school. I regret it everyday of my life that I refused to pay attention in school, and go to the length not to show up, all because I had problems at home.

You sound like a smart, responsible kid. If you want, you could run away from home and face the adversity of the real world, lanquish pain, and gain knowledge of life. You could channel your emotions into music and hopefully become famous while building up to that point, working like a maniac to survive. If you are one of those types that is a fighter, a survivor, and someone who could take a beating from god, hey dude, go for it.

Otherwise stay away from your house as much as possible, make sure your bro and sis are all right, while you focus on school, finding your passions, and seeking happiness.

My gut tells me you are of the lather, you sound like you can handle some adversity.