The purpose of your life is to be friends with God. He does not need worship, gifts or sacrifices, but he surely loves to be where his friends are. Be his friend, he is already yours.
Do something different today, do something scary, like visit an old folks home and find a veteran to talk to. Confined to a bed staring at the ceiling day after day with no visitors is a far worse hell than you know.
It's the 4th of July, if fireworks are legal for you, have fun.
If you are all depressed and doing nothing but drinking all day, at least try a fine wine or a different beer. Point is, try some change to get out of a rut.