Yeah, I definately overthink and overanalyze lol and I've actually had a lot of shit happen in my life and the thought has crossed my mind- but I don't think I'm capable of doing it and I think suicide is awful and seriously stupid. But I know how it is to be in a certain mental state where everything just sucks- and really what's the point to life? But really no matter how boring life seems there is actually a lot of stuff you can do and a lot of versatality. You should live even for the short moments where you were happy- even if it's something really minor that's exciting. Besides it is so easy to die, that's what's also scary. You could die anyday- in a car crash or slipping in the tub (it happens). Wanting to die and actualy killing yourself can be disassociated completely- the important thing is that no matter how shitty you feel you can't do anything crazy. Also if you have just one person that cares about you, think how shitty it would make them feel if you killed yourself. THere wil always be at least one peson thta cares about u and will feel guilty as shit if u kill urself. Let that be the last thing that keeps us all living. :-)