dissociation depersonalization disorder

[laurajustlaura]

I don't know if you read any of my complaining threads on here, but I think I know why I've been so dizzy & everything's been so weird for the past 3 weeks....

For one thing, I want to know if this is supposed to happen when you smoke. I don't know because it's only happened the past couple of times out of the year I've been smoking. It feels like everything is a dream, like what happens when you fall asleep when the TV is on then wake up & they're moving weird, is how I can describe it.
Second of all,
For some reason I looked on the DSM-IV & saw depersonalization disorder: http://www.behavenet.com/capsules/di.../depersdis.htm
This firsttime it happened (if you'll kindly read the link) back in 7th grade for maybe 30 seconds and it scared the shit out of me. It happened a couple of times after that, mostly while I was on DXM.
But about 3 weeks ago, it started again, only for longer periods of time, and every day now too. It's mostly in the mornings but it goes through the day on and off a lot too. Some days it's worse than usual, mostly after I've smoked ANYTHING the day before (maybe it has to do with blood pressure or lack of oxygen, I don't know.)...It's also more noticeable when I'm around a lot of people or if I'm outside when it just starts getting dark.
I can't even smoke a cigarette now or it gets a lot worse for a couple of minutes & my heart rate gets faster which I'm sure isn't making it any better.
I read it can be caused by the "onset of the use of marijuana", which would make sense if it started a year ago when I started, but it started happening every day 3 weeks ago when I bought some from someone else (who I knew)
I don't know if that might be causing it, but I REALLY don't like it cause I don't want to take any drugs till it stops, and it doesn't look like it will stop soon.

Some people I know are going to say "thats so cool i wish it would happen to me". No, you don't. It's fun for a while, sure, but when you really have to be doing something it's not fun at ALL, and after weeks of it you just want it to stop already.

Does this happen to anyone else? IS that what's going on here? And most importantly, Is it permanent?
thanks
laura


if you know anything about if IM me at atreeisme cause i really want to know about this, it's annoying as hell after 3 weeks.

laurajustlaura Reviewed by laurajustlaura on 10-22-2005. dissociation depersonalization disorder I don't know if you read any of my complaining threads on here, but I think I know why I've been so dizzy & everything's been so weird for the past 3 weeks.... For one thing, I want to know if this is supposed to happen when you smoke. I don't know because it's only happened the past couple of times out of the year I've been smoking. It feels like everything is a dream, like what happens when you fall asleep when the TV is on then wake up & they're moving weird, is how I can describe it. Rating: 5

[Reefer Rogue]

Do i look like a doctor?

[budsbuddy]

sounds like an alergic reaction. Try taking a benadryl before you smoke see if that helps.
How old are you by the way?

[laurajustlaura]

14

It started happening every day now, without any drugs. I stopped for a week or 2 now & i still get it.

[beachguy in thongs]

Here's some things I found on dissociative disorders (including multiple personalitity). Let me know if I'm way off base.

Diagnosis:
Anxiey [severe/panic]/Fear may be related to maladaption to ineffective coping continuing from early life, unconscious conflict(s), threat to self-concept, unmet needs, or phobic stimulus, possibly evidenced by maladaptive response to stress (e.g., dissociating self/fragmentation of the personality), increased tension, feelings of inadequacy, and focus on self, projection of personal perception onto the environment.
Violence, risk for, directed at self/others: risk factors may include depressed mood, dissociative state/conflicting personalities, panic states, and suicidal/homicidal behaviors.
Personal identity disturbance may be related to psychologic conflicts (dissociative state), childhood trauma/abuse, threat to physical integrity/self-concept, and underdeveloped ego, possibly evidenced by alteration in perception or experience of self, loss of one's own sense of reality/the external world, poorly differentiated ego boundaries, confusion about sense of self, purpose or direction in life, memory loss, presence of more than one personality within the individual.
Family Coping, ineffective: compromised may be related to multiple stressors repeated over time, prolonged progression of disorder that exhausts the supporive capacity of significant people, family disorganization and role changes, possibly evidenced by family/significant other describing inadequate understanding or knowledge that interferes with effective assistive or supportive behaviors, and relationship/marital conflict.

Let me know what you need, I have medical books.

[Gecko]

Hmm, when I bought from this guy I barely knew a few times, after a while I started having panic attacks. I went to to doctor and was diagnosed with Panic Anxiety Disorder. I decided to quit drugs for a few months and see if that did anything, and sure enough it did. Plus, over the Summer, I worked on a farm with my step-dad. I would have to say manual labor helps mental health for some reason. I used to worry so much just about everything and fear that someone put something in my food, but after 2 months of hard manual labor, it just stopped. I don't know... Now I smoke regularly again. But my source is good and trustworthy. And I haven't had a panic attack in about... 7 months, it feels great. I'd say, give it some time and see what happens.

[genik]

1st post

It might not have to do with drugs...
go see a doctor

[lizka4200]

genik welcome to this crazy place

[liquid swords]

Depersonalization is a disorder that more commonly comes from abuse of PCP or formeldahyde (sp). But I suppose it's possible that is came from weed or DXM. Just ditch every drug for a while and see how it goes.

[sharpezor]

Yes, i had it for 2 weeks a wile back. It goes away. I had about 2 boxes of graval and countless tynol. it is toaly fucked.

what it is, is Anxiey, just Anxiey. Do you have Obsessive compulsive disorder by any chance?

dont let it controll you, its all in your head!

this is my post in the matter: http://boards.cannabis.com/showthrea...ersonalization