Hey guys,

To everyone who's given me their email address, thanks. I'd love to chat with you guys, but I don't wanna unload all my crap on somebody else (more than I already have..). As much as I don't object to talking about myself (hehe) I don't like talking about my personal problems.. for no reason other than I feel that others will feel that I like to talk about myself. Lol, dumb huh? But I really appreciate you guys being here for me..

Nevada, thanks for your rpely. I don't know if we've ever spoken to you before on these boards, and if I haven't then I should have.

Maybe you're right, maybe I just need to talk to someone.. I've thought about maybe getting some counselling or something, you know? The only problem is that I can't work right now so I wouldn't be able to pay for it, and i'm not comfortable with getting Social Services or whatever to pay for it, don't ask me why because I don't know. Lol

Wow, I can't tell you guys how grateful I am. Some of you i've known for a good while, and some of you I haven't, but it's still so nice when people can do their best to help somebody who they barely know, at least not in real life.

I'll be okay.. It was just a shock. I'm usually always happy, at least on the surface (I now realise that it's definately just on the surface) but that's usually enough to get me through the day until the next day starts. This time, though, something happened (I don't know what) that made me slip up, and that thin layer of happiness (or whatever you wanan call it) disappeared for a second. This was the consequence...

To those who've offered advice or kind words, thank you. Seriously, thank you. To those who are going through something similar, if you need anybody to talk to, about anything.. [email protected]

James