Bruv your only 18 you should be making the most of your life (what youve had of it - your still a kid really) im sorry but maybe u shouldnt feel sorry for yourself so much and dont worry what other people think - on the subject of suicide i think people are to quick to think about it these days its also a fucking selfish thing to do - u may not be in pain anymore but what about the people around u? from what iv read it just sounds rediculous to contemplate suicide because of a few insecurites!! this subject is pretty close to my heart i recently lost some friends because of it - someone id known for years, he was just a kid when i knew him but was 20 when he died, was found hanged in a block of flats, the police say he killed himself (but some people think he was murdered), anyway his twin brother couldnt live without him and he killed himself a day after his bros funeral, it really kills me to think about it, they were 2 young healthy boys with their whole lives in front of them and now their gone!