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[lardman]

I probably sound like the most horrible person on the planet, and maybe I am. I dunno.. Shit, there are actually fucking tears rolling down my face.. Lol, i'm an 18 year old guy and i'm fucking crying.. I haven't cried for, well, I don't even know how long.

Dude you do not sound like anything close to horrible, or bad. You sound confused and depressed and not a sense of accomplishment or something. Nobody thinks you are horrible.

CRYING!!?? Dude, that is nothing to be ashamed at at all. I cry at times too. You are not human if you do not cry, or want to cry. Somehow people have to let their frustration out, and besides freakin out and going on a rampage, and suicide (ehhh) you cry. Crying helps the pain go away, sorta. You feel like shit when you cry but afterwords you feel better.

I want to talk to you more on this later tomorrow, i cant right now cuz its 4am, i wish i could, but i need to get to bed. Do not do anything rashanal (bad spelling).

Cya when I see yah.