Ok. I've been with my bf for over two years now. I went through this big depression and stuff. Normally I'm a very negative person. Usually I only see bad things in people, life, situations. And I'm sneaky. I usually just sit and think about how someone is fucking me over. Usually it turns out nothing is going on to begin with. The thing is I have mood swings. I thought i was happy until this afternoon. I saw on a message board that my bf had commented that this chick was hot. And then he made a post called "I love black women" and posted pics of all the black porn/ movie stars he would love to fuck. Now my bf isn't a cheater. But in my eyes that's cheating. I'm upset and feel like I'm unattractive and the only reason my bf doesn't cheat on me is because of the guilt he would have to live with if he did. I feel that the fact he loves me or is attracted to me more than those other women doesn't keep him from cheating. Just the guilt. And I feel he would love to get some different pussy if it weren't for loving me. We are comfortable in our relationship. Like a marriage. The sex is good but it's the same. There is more love than sexual attraction. I don't take 45 minutes to suck his dick like when we first started dating because I don't like to suck dick. It's boring. Now that's really fucked up I know. But do you women ever feel like you are unattractive to your signifigant other even though they say you are the best gf they have ever had? That your bf isn't attracted to you simply because he admits to finding other women attractive? I mean if he finds them attractive then ok. But he doesnt' have to say it. I mean is it possible for your bf to find a wide array of women attractive and still because he is in love with you doesn't cheat? And should I accept that behavior? I don't want to be put in a category with other women he doesn't even know. And I don't see him putting my pics up saying I'm the most fuckable woman in the world. Yet I have let him do whatever he has wanted to with me shouldn't I deserve some recognition? I try to speak with him about it and he says i'm just being a typical jealous bitch. And that he doesn't cheat. And that all women do this shit. He also watched porn. A lot of porn. Which makes me feel very unattractive because there he is having these fantasies and jacking off to all these other women not giving me a thought in the matter. I dont' masturbate to other men. I hate all other men. Why should he masturbate to these sluts that get paid to have sex and fake orgasms? When I feel this way and start thinking about all the negative things in my life. I start to think I'm worthless and all I'm here for on this earth is just to give men a nut. And even when I am generous enough to give my pussy to one man it's not enough. Even though he's not touching another pussy he still wants one. How should that be accepted by women?
nancyrenee Reviewed by nancyrenee on . question directed at women but men can respond Ok. I've been with my bf for over two years now. I went through this big depression and stuff. Normally I'm a very negative person. Usually I only see bad things in people, life, situations. And I'm sneaky. I usually just sit and think about how someone is fucking me over. Usually it turns out nothing is going on to begin with. The thing is I have mood swings. I thought i was happy until this afternoon. I saw on a message board that my bf had commented that this chick was hot. And then he made Rating: 5