We all do. Some more then others. But he's gone... although it may be hard to believe I don't think he's coming back, he's moved on, I'm sure there are bigger things he needs to focus on in his life at the moment... that's not to say he wont come back one day, but for now, he's gone. We might see him in a year. Or a month. Or never again. The best thing you can do is accept it.. I was very sad at first to be honest, but I've come to terms with reality. HD is gone