i need something that won't make you drift in & out of reality, which is what it did to me. i don't like just staring off & not being able to really talk to anyone (either too paranoid or didnt understand what they/I was saying)
the only other things i've tried are 2.5mg of a valium once, and i got drunk once, which i liked, but it wasn't massively dont-know-whats-going-on drunk, so i don't know.....
the last time i had a good experience was at my friends party like 2 months ago......every time was bad after that.....and at her party i still liked talking to the more-sober people.
what do you think i should try then? unfortunately its easier to get 'downer' pills than anything else, which i probably wouldnt like.