there are lots of little things really, like when i was a little kid i had a recurring nightmare that came vividly once a year for 6 years. i think it was a result of a trumatic situation i had when i was little, (i got run over by a car when i was 1 1/2 and saw something i associated as a spirit or angel.) so i think that was my psychological coping, but random scenes from the dreams would like pop up to me as i would go places randomly that i had never been, it was weird. and then when i was 8 there was a big scene in with my dad and sister and the cops came and it was crazy. so the deja vu was a little weird then too. then, maybe once a month i'd get the feeling of deja vu, sometimes from dreams that i recalled and sometimes from ones i didn't.

another time, was when i was 11. i had grown up in connecticut and out of nowhere my mom decided for us to move to orlando. that night i was so sad and bawling in my room, and i grew up in church so i was praying at the time and all of a sudden i had a calm, happy feeling go through me and i saw this neighborhood that was all florida looking and i was just looking up at a lightpole and talking with a bunch of kids in the neighborhood and then i zoned back into reality and realized i saw something weird. i felt a little better about moving and i was able to cope with another really hard time in my life.

so then that lead to now, through high school i went to church and i couldn't stand it for the most part because of the hypocrisy and problems in the church but i still went for a little bit of spiritual fulfillment. but i graduated in 04 and since then i have been getting more in tune to my spiritual life, and God and the universe as i've stopped going to church, that was like a year and a half ago, then i started smoking last january and my spirituality has been even better. but with that i've been getting drastically more deja vu. it's more vivid, and it's powerful. so, i don't know. i've talked forever about this, and i doubt anyone has even read all of it, but i guess i'll stop before i fill up 20 pages.