This is my problem with christians.
GET OVER IT!!!
It's just fucking weed, it's just a book of lies, it's just a pie in the sky.
Go out & buy some weed & smoke it. You only turned to Christianity in desperation, now stop being so desperate & go smoke a bit! or a lot!
Why the hell do you want to be a good christian? So people can walk all over you, control you & know that you really are that weak?

Only weak people need religion, get over it & smoke.
What do you thinks gonna happen? You think the nasty devil will come down & punish you for smoking?